What is friend?
hi peeps, hope all my readers are doing fine and staying healthy as always. Is being awhile since my last entry. I know,nowadays i hardly update my blog. Not that there is nothing to update, on a contrary there are lots of stuff i could update here,whether inregards to personal matters or my gym stuff. As a matter of fact when i started to blog, the main objectivewas just help me to past time during my graveyard shift those days. But ever since i hv move on to my current job, i don'tneed to work shift, back to nine to five job (which i am not complaining at all). So decided to maintain the blog by updating stuffthat is related to my gym stuff.
Im not those ppl who can share everything from inside-out, espeacially when comes to matter that is close to someone heart. Thereforei really salute those bloggers who can really pour thier hearts out without any hesitation whatsoever. But today, or should i writetonight, i have something to rant about. Not so much of ranting, but just wanan get it out from my mind that has been bothering melately. I try my best not to make it too confusing for you readers to digest (but u know lah!, can get carried away hahaha)
Friends. What is a defination of friends? You don't need me to copy/paste from wikipedia inorder for you ppl to understand the wordfriends here. To me, i do cherish the friendship i have all this while. Regardless close or far, to me, friends does play animportant role/ or should i say, shape me to who i am today. Friends to me is very important. I have close friends, friends that i hveknown since childhood schoold days (till today we still keep intouch). I have also friends that i do keep base very daily, which someoffthem are so-closed now that we can just chat about anything that is undernearth the sky. There are also friends, that is so-closed to youthat you can also confide your heart n problem to that person whithout feeling any hesitation at all.
From friends, we get to know each other better, understand everyone better n also treat each other respect n learn from each other,whether good or bad just to constantly improve ourselves to be a better person who we are today.There are also friends, who really caresfor your wellbeing. So to me, this are the friends i never take for granted.
i do consider myself as a very caring person (to certain extend lar ...hahah), and i can say i am kinda sensitive with the surrouding as well.When i do see a friend needs help or sense something is not right, i will try to do something to make my friend feel better. Ofcos there are times someppl just dowan us to barge into thier personal matter, so there is also a limit as to how much we wanna care or help. Having said that, we are human-being, we have flaws in ourselves. As much as we like to deny it, but there are times,when you do somehting for yourfriends, there is this small itsy-tiny-weeny in your hearts that tells u, hopefully sometimes when u go thru the same phase, u would have that personwill do the same thing back to you. Although i must say i try not to expect anything from anyone, but it does happen to me sometimes....yes sometimes, or should i say once in blue moon lar...Espeacially to friends who you really treat them very close to you.
Im sure lately u guys know im busy with the gym launch and stuff. Lots of thing need to do for hte launch. Have to prepare/conduct tuitions, at the sametime have to do classes as well, and then when the launch is drawing near, you have to do practises. So it does take its toll at one point. Sometimes you will getsome supporting words thru your mates (you know who you guys are ) and that does really make my days. Cos they do know what i am going thru, cos they are alsogoing thru the same process n path as well. Then you realised, there are ppl who are so ignorant, And here we are, doing the same thing, doing the same launch, although different team, and yet no words or support, niether do you have anything coming out from that person at all.
Now the thing is, or you ppl would be wondering, why it this bothering me. Well, i too ask myself, why? I realised, to certain extend i do treat this person very close to me as friend at one time.When this person started to involve in the gym stuff, these person came in way (im not saying asking for help) but then to certain extend just wanan be part of the team. I did what i did, cos i do know how hard to be a newbie in this circle. And at one time, we were friends, well, to me i do consider these person as one of my close friends....But things happened, and we went our separate ways and yada yada yada...hiak!Although we have not been keeping intouch that much these days, but knowing each other what we have been goign thru lately, maybe an sms or word of support that will do good, well to me it does makes alotof different. But sad to say, something what u hope or wish, doesn't come as it is. Then it hit me, what is friend to us? And these person did ask me at one time, and i qoute, why can't we be friends? At that time i don't hv an answer to these person question. But now,if these person ask me again, i will able to tell these person the answer..........
And by writing this entry down, i do hope i have move on...( i know, purple dino is gonna kill me! hahaha). I would like to close this chapter of my life n seek other greater things in life and alsocherish what i do have with me now, which you, you, and you.........
Labels: Personal Thoughts
posted by xPeace05 @ 6/27/2008 11:54:00 PM
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